We are at a crossroads with our family and the last month we have been looking as far down every possible path to help us better decide where it is we want to go. The choices are not too important, at least not here, but I came to an interesting awareness this morning and credit my daily walks and yoga with bringing me here.
Many mornings in the winter it is dark, cold and wet and I have an ongoing conversation in my head... "Oh, I don't have to walk this morning... I can do it later... the dogs will be fine... I am too tired... not feeling great... blah, blah, blah". Seriously, how silly am I? I did this routine again this morning and took myself out anyway. Boy, it was freezing, I forgot the poopy bags and the trail was closed due to flooding, which cut the walk a little short. And yet, I felt exhilarated when I returned home. I always feel exhilarated after my walk. In my lucid moments I understand why I go; it is the space I create for myself, the beating heart, the happy dogs, the feeling of being fully alive.
I confess to having similar conversations regarding my yoga practice and again, I see my silliness. I go to my yoga mat, my body feels stiff and often old, I have "stuff" to do that calls my name as I move from pose to pose. And as I lie in Savasana I feel peace and bliss and swear I will never again fight the draw of the mat.
Till the next time!!
How does any of this relate to big life choices? Simple. It's not about the walk or the yoga; it is about how I feel, how I am connected to something more, how I want to experience this wonderful journey on earth.
I realized that we were looking at the choices from the wrong perspective. We need to look at the options from how we feel, what we want to feel, experience and how we want to connect to each other, our children and the greater community.
To tell the truth, I am not sure this has changed our options but it has certainly reminded me to ignore the rambling arguments and to make any decisions based on our core values and needs.
I wonder will I still fight myself tomorrow when is time to walk and practice yoga???
Namaste.